What Does Kingdom Culture Look Like?

I've taken long since writing. Many reasons for this, one being my computer was stolen and writing these updates on my phone is more difficult. But I am so thankful to announce that my computer has been replaced through my amazing church family Epikos in Bend, OR. Many of the other items stolen were also purchased for me as well. It is overwhelming having my life so deeply blessed through the generosity of others. I'm deeply grateful to everyone who made a purchase or donation. 
Another reason for the delay in writing has been that my focus has been instead on my own trauma recovery. If you read my last email, you are familiar with all the various miracles which Daddy revealed that night. One of them being my training I received in trauma care last July. It was His provision that I would undergo that training and it was not only helpful in the moment, but it had also opened my heart for the need for further training. Since July, I have been reading books and articles on trauma care for individuals and groups. Therefore my tool box was full not only of knowledge but resources to turn to. I am so thankful to share that my recovery is going very well. I still feel tension throughout my body from the trauma and certain noises at night still bring anxiety but my sleep has been peaceful thanks to a deep revelation of Jesus' love every night as I go to bed. 
I want to share some of the stories from the youth school and the revelation that the youth received those few weeks. It was amazing that even in the midst of this trauma, and some because of, the Father revealed His heart for each of these young adults. 

More connection   One of the beautiful results of the attack was a leveling of responsibility which meant a leveling of relationship. In Uganda, whites are often elevated and placed on a pedestal. It is a difficult position to be in and a constant thought of how to bring about the truth of our equal value. Following the attack, I removed myself from leadership and did not speak any longer. I knew my heart was not in a healthy place to lead but also I knew I needed my own personal healing not only from Father, but from my peers who had experienced the trauma with me. This photo shows some of the other leaders as well as one of the youth. Each were, and continue to be, an integral part in Daddy healing my heart from what happened. There was a deep connection made when we went through this horror together and I leaned much on each of them, and the others, in order to move through into healing together. I am so thankful that Daddy used this to reveal His desire for all of His children to know they are equal. Because of the way He positioned me to receive, the youth connected with me in a different way than in previous schools and for that I am deeply grateful. 

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One of the beautiful results of the attack was a leveling of responsibility which meant a leveling of relationship. In Uganda, whites are often elevated and placed on a pedestal. It is a difficult position to be in and a constant thought of how to bring about the truth of our equal value. Following the attack, I removed myself from leadership and did not speak any longer. I knew my heart was not in a healthy place to lead but also I knew I needed my own personal healing not only from Father, but from my peers who had experienced the trauma with me. This photo shows some of the other leaders as well as one of the youth. Each were, and continue to be, an integral part in Daddy healing my heart from what happened. There was a deep connection made when we went through this horror together and I leaned much on each of them, and the others, in order to move through into healing together. I am so thankful that Daddy used this to reveal His desire for all of His children to know they are equal. Because of the way He positioned me to receive, the youth connected with me in a different way than in previous schools and for that I am deeply grateful. 

Highlight Sons/Daughters  Following are just a few quotes from the youth as they shared their hearts during the healing process with Daddy.   Where Father has taken me, no one can remove me. (this was shared from the young man in the photo above.   I went from striving in prayer to knowing the Father is the source of love.  'Father how do You show me You love me?' -'I bring you rain because I know you need water. I bring you sun because I know you need light. I bring you darkness because I know you need rest.'  I'm not a "prayer warrior" as before. Now I know I'm a son. I receive His gifts and I give away freely.  These teachings really heal the heart. Not like other teachings that don't deal with the real thing.  I've never been to a place where I was loved by so many people.   Those few weeks brought about a deep change in the hearts of these sons and daughters. Since that time, I've received so many messages of what He is continuing to do in their lives. Our first follow up is in a couple of weeks and it will be wonderful to have so many return to hear more of their testimony. 

Highlight Sons/Daughters

Following are just a few quotes from the youth as they shared their hearts during the healing process with Daddy. 

Where Father has taken me, no one can remove me. (this was shared from the young man in the photo above. 

I went from striving in prayer to knowing the Father is the source of love.

'Father how do You show me You love me?' -'I bring you rain because I know you need water. I bring you sun because I know you need light. I bring you darkness because I know you need rest.'

I'm not a "prayer warrior" as before. Now I know I'm a son. I receive His gifts and I give away freely.

These teachings really heal the heart. Not like other teachings that don't deal with the real thing.

I've never been to a place where I was loved by so many people. 

Those few weeks brought about a deep change in the hearts of these sons and daughters. Since that time, I've received so many messages of what He is continuing to do in their lives. Our first follow up is in a couple of weeks and it will be wonderful to have so many return to hear more of their testimony. 

I am sooooo deeply thankful to announce that Bubbles has been found and safely returned to me! There were items stolen from inside and some damage done but most has already been repaired. The vehicle was found abandoned in Kampala. The delay was simply communication. Receiving it back was expensive due to this lack of communication with the local police. No bribes were paid but instead there was a lot of transport between multiple cities and the need to stay in guesthouses which meant meals eaten in restaurants. But the cost again was covered through your generosity. A good friend of mine was visiting from Germany when I received the phone call that Bubbles had been found and though I was excited and relieved, she noticed that I wasn't as excited as she would have thought and asked me about this. Just last week Daddy revealed the why. He showed me that my heart was content with or without the vehicle. He showed me that relying on Jesus and His words over my life during these past two months have brought me to a state where it does not matter what I have or don't have. My Peace is from Him. Again He has revealed such truths to my heart which are irreplaceable. 

I am sooooo deeply thankful to announce that Bubbles has been found and safely returned to me! There were items stolen from inside and some damage done but most has already been repaired. The vehicle was found abandoned in Kampala. The delay was simply communication. Receiving it back was expensive due to this lack of communication with the local police. No bribes were paid but instead there was a lot of transport between multiple cities and the need to stay in guesthouses which meant meals eaten in restaurants. But the cost again was covered through your generosity. A good friend of mine was visiting from Germany when I received the phone call that Bubbles had been found and though I was excited and relieved, she noticed that I wasn't as excited as she would have thought and asked me about this. Just last week Daddy revealed the why. He showed me that my heart was content with or without the vehicle. He showed me that relying on Jesus and His words over my life during these past two months have brought me to a state where it does not matter what I have or don't have. My Peace is from Him. Again He has revealed such truths to my heart which are irreplaceable. 

What's coming for me personally?   I have been planning a trip to Europe in April since last year. One of the things I have learned since living in Uganda now 5 years is that scheduled time of refreshment and rest are needed to maintain health. Europe is a place where I can receive those things. Because of this, I have been saving for a long time to have this getaway. Originally my plan was to leave the 1st of April. However due to further visa issues, I will be leaving next week. The additional time spent out of Uganda comes with a gift from Daddy. I asked Him what to do with these additional couple of weeks and His response was 'Israel'. :) So next week I will be flying and spending a couple of weeks in the place where my beloved lived as a man on earth. My heart soars at this thought and I can't wait to just be there with Him. I am not planning to try and visit everywhere but instead I am being guided by Him on a few locations to go and just be. My heart needs this and I am thankful for the opportunity to take time away and be reminded that I am His beloved daughter. I am so very thankful for all the prayers and encouragement since the attack in January. I am doing much better but this trip will hopefully continue the healing process. I will be seeing a counselor during part of it as well as simply being with Daddy in a land where I can relax and let my guard down a little. :)    Sending you all love and hugs!

What's coming for me personally?

I have been planning a trip to Europe in April since last year. One of the things I have learned since living in Uganda now 5 years is that scheduled time of refreshment and rest are needed to maintain health. Europe is a place where I can receive those things. Because of this, I have been saving for a long time to have this getaway. Originally my plan was to leave the 1st of April. However due to further visa issues, I will be leaving next week. The additional time spent out of Uganda comes with a gift from Daddy. I asked Him what to do with these additional couple of weeks and His response was 'Israel'. :) So next week I will be flying and spending a couple of weeks in the place where my beloved lived as a man on earth. My heart soars at this thought and I can't wait to just be there with Him. I am not planning to try and visit everywhere but instead I am being guided by Him on a few locations to go and just be. My heart needs this and I am thankful for the opportunity to take time away and be reminded that I am His beloved daughter. I am so very thankful for all the prayers and encouragement since the attack in January. I am doing much better but this trip will hopefully continue the healing process. I will be seeing a counselor during part of it as well as simply being with Daddy in a land where I can relax and let my guard down a little. :) 

Sending you all love and hugs!